07 май, 2015

lose it all

But it wouldn't be my world without you in it
Мога да пиша цяла вечер за всичките съвпадения, които ме свързват с теб от моя до твоя рожден ден, до нея и него. С магията в числата ще си построя замък, с всичките мечти ще го изрисувам отвън и отвътре, за да ни отива на тъмнината в душата и светлината в сърцето. Толкова съм изградена от противоположности, че понякога сама не се търпя. Исках да си намеря границите преди много дълго време. Все още ги търся. Понякога ми ги поставят разни други хора. Друг път ги руша, и моите и техните. Мисля, че именно със загубата на граници достигнах до тук. Затова сега ги ценя, поставям ги внимателно. Обичам да си подреждам хаоса. Докато не се намери какво да ми го обърка. 
Sometimes it's all I want. For the peace and quiet to disappear. But I've had enough loudness to last a lifetime. I bet you can turn my world upside down without making a sound. It's what you do. I wonder what is it that I do to you. Besides piss you off and bite your ears, I mean. Inside joke. I think I'm learning the best lesson anyone can hope to ever learn - you can handle everything on your own, no matter what. But it's okay to let your people take care of you when it's too hard. It's good to be home. Not that I've been calling it home for real, but it feels homey, even when my room is no longer my room and my mom moves my things all the time, so it looks clean and neat. Still I do believe home is not really a place but a feeling of being safe and loved. After all, it's what everyone needs. 
Well, I should say it. My boy has a birthday today! I already told him all my wishes but what I missed was that I want to be the one who holds his hand when he's having a hard time and I want to be the one that hugs him when he's on top of the world. I want him to be just as awesome, kind and to believe in the best in people. I will be there to see the bad and protect him from it. I think he knows that already anyway. Some things go without saying, you know. Like those three...

Няма коментари: